Your love is everything

My dear dear Beth,

I opened the memory book for you tonight. It is heartwrenching to feel the fading of the intimacy. I almost forget what I was like when you were around. I could only relive that intimacy with you reading the letters from parents that you helped. Such as the following:


Dear Pai and Baby Alicia,

Yen Hua came to work with my baby Cxxx when she was less than a year old. Yen Hua helped my little Cxxx so much! It was amazing to see the progress Cxxx was making week to week. As time went by, Cxxx would wait at the door and clap excitedly when she would see Yen Hua get out of the car with her bag full of fun toys!! Yen Hua was a warm and nurturing person, a fantastic therapist, full of such helpful strategies for my little girl.

As her pregnancy progressed I remember her phone ringing during our sessions, a  smile would come to her face and she would say "that must be my husband checking in to see how I am feeling", she knew how much you love her!! She mentioned a few times that you wanted to name your baby girl, Princess. She knew that she was your princess and that the baby would also be your little princess, she love the name Alicia and had said that you both had decided that would be her given name, and it is a beautiful name.

Please take comfort in the knowledge that Yen Yua touched the lives of so many children and their parents. I feel blessed to have known your beautiful wife and want you to know how thankful I am to her for all she did for my family. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.


As time went by, when I look back, I become more and more appreciated about what you have given me. Your love, is everything a man could have ever hoped for. Thank you. I love you.

Andy




妳一直工作到預產期前一週才請假。

那天，我們外出散步... 我開著車

我說：「去妳辦公室前面照張相吧，有紀念意義的。」

妳微笑：「好啊！」


我們在妳辦公室前面照了這張相。


I have been thinking about why this is so hard for me... I guess few people can understand.

人交了許多朋友

有的人是聊天說地閒扯淡的朋友
有的人是正經八百談人生的朋友
有的人跟你談宗教、信仰
有的人是幫你出主意的軍師

有人是跟你一起組隊打電動的朋友
有的人是欣賞藝術時的朋友
有的人是欣賞音樂的朋友
有的人是一起打球的朋友
有的人是一起吃美食的朋友
有的人是同你一起到處旅行見識的朋友
有人是跟你一起學習知識的伴讀
有人是當你懷疑，給你打氣的朋友
有人是跟你一起品頭論足路上美女的朋友

有些人，是會讓你覺得放心做自己就好的朋友

有時候有那種頻率相近，相處夠多
不小心同時間說同一句話，那種「很有默契的好朋友」


很幸運很幸運的時候，
一輩子說不定會遇到不說也懂的「知音」


然後或許，會有機會認識「話怎麼說都說不完的知己」


另一種人
是讓你小路亂撞「昏眩迷戀」

還有一種人
是「很愛很愛你的人」

一種
是同你為生活打拼，一起買菜、煮飯、洗衣、洗碗，幫你省錢、持家，
「伴你一生的牽手」


Many of these are things some may never could hope to find for their whole lives. But I found all of them, in one person. And that is why, it is so hard for me to adjust. Becasue I lost so many at once.